God Help Me

In the camp me and my dad just been separated from each other. I don't know what i am going to do, I lost my mom and little brother, and now I lose my dad. I am in a painful situation to the point when I want to go crazy, I cry and cry over and over but I cant show it to the guards. I have faith in you god that you will watch over my family. I pray and pray over and over. that is all I think about when I am working. I just want to know something god, Why would you allow something like this to happen and you know that I cant handle such pain like this. I lost my whole family and now I am left with just myself and now I am losing track on my work. I'm starting to get beat up by the German guards again and now I am working more duties. I just now hope that I can survive the holocaust, but I do pray that my family does survive and that I can see them all again one day.